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Finding joy in life and death

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Receiving a diagnosis of cancer – or any other major illness – is a life-changing event no matter what our age. I've been quiet on this blog for a while because 6-7 weeks ago, after a routine colonoscopy, I was diagnosed with colon cancer.

Coming events do sometimes cast their shadow, I believe, though of course we don't always realize it at the time. But looking back, I realize that the first indication I had that something was amiss was two months ago when my wife, JoAnn, and I took part in a tour of historic homes in Denver.

I love walking. Heck, I was born in England and I've walked all my life. So it was a bit of a shock when after walking only a few blocks and visiting only two or three homes I realized that I was becoming exhausted while JoAnn was continuing on fresh as a daisy.

How could this be? As I say, I walk every day. JoAnn does come for walks with me sometimes but she doesn’t share nearly the same passion for walking that I do.

In any case, a routine colonoscopy a few weeks later did indeed show that I had cancer, and since that time I’ve felt as if I have been and indeed still am in the midst of a whirlwind.

I'm 81, and I've faced a few adversities in my life as we all have. But something about this particular challenge at this particular time has brought me closer than ever to two apparently contradictory experiences – the reality of joy and the reality of fear and death.

I was admitted to hospital early December 26, and the three-and-a half-hour surgery began at 7.30 that morning. I've been home for two weeks. It has been a challenging time, without question.

There are so many things I can’t do. I have felt weak as a kitten, and still do compared to my normal self. At times I feel as if don’t have a drop of energy. In other words my recovery has fluctuated, and it still does fluctuate.

I started walking outside for the first time five days ago, and this is a lifesaver. I can feel it nourishing me in a deep way. JoAnn bought a walker for me to use if I needed it, but I didn't want to get involved with that. Whatever walking I've been able to do so far has been on my own two unaided feet.

I mentioned fear, and fear has definitely been emphasized in my experience these last few weeks. But what I want to share with you, and this comes from a very, very grateful heart, is that during these last several weeks I have also become increasingly conscious of something else that is present with us besides fear that we can depend upon implicitly.

It is a sense of deep, timeless peace that never fails and is untouched by any of the outer events of our lives. It is the source of joy and is the greatest gift that life offers to us.

And so, strange though it may sound, I have found a great blessing in the midst of my suffering as if a door is opening to a deeper connection with the love at the core of my being.

I hope all goes well for you and send you greetings and best wishes after what feels like a long absence. If there is anything you would like to say about any of the above I would love, really love, to hear from you.

PS The surgeon said the cancer was detected early. He doesn't think I will need further treatment but he has referred me to an oncologist for her evaluation.

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Ell January 18, 2014 at 2:40 pm

May you continue to walk in beauty and peace. Thank you for your book and your postings.
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Christopher Foster January 21, 2014 at 11:53 am

Great to hear from you Ell. Thank you for your kind words and I hope you enjoy the book.

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Gloria Rubin January 18, 2014 at 2:42 pm

Chris, so happy that your own two feet are able to again walk you into your life! Touching the earth, the reality of being in form, guides us along our individual paths. Blessings, gloria

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Christopher Foster January 21, 2014 at 11:55 am

Thanks Gloria,it sure is a blessing to be able to walk on this good earth isn’t it. Love and blessings.

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Morris Donna January 18, 2014 at 2:46 pm

Hello Christopher,
It is good to hear from you again, and I always gain insight from your posts. I’m so sorry to hear of your diagnosis, but I’m pleased that you are doing so well. As we get older, there does seem to be more to fear and dread, but the trick is to balance that with hope, peace and joy…….which is a choice, a developed skill which you have exhibited for as long as I’ve been reading your blog. I send love and good wishes……let us support you in any way we can.
Love and good wishes to you….take care.
Donna

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Christopher Foster January 22, 2014 at 10:58 am

Many thanks for taking the time to write, Donna. I appreciate your kind and encouraging words. Love and good wishes to you too.

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Maureen Waller January 18, 2014 at 2:51 pm

Thank you, dear Chris, for sharing your recent experiences in this open way. Your straighforwardness is inspirational and your honesty also. I will be more aware of you now and send you loving blessings as your journey back to full walking mode continues.
Love …………..Maureen

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Christopher Foster January 22, 2014 at 11:00 am

It’s good to reconnect with you Maureen. Thank you for your comment and I send a lot of blessing and love your way.

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Liz January 18, 2014 at 2:52 pm

Hi Christopher,
I am so sorry about your diagnosis, I pray for you that you will recover completely and have good health in abundance in Jesus name.
I understand where you are coming from, especially having stayed with my late mum who was very sick for several years. She passed away October last year but before then she suffered too much from that ailment, its heart wrenching and I pray that I will never witness such anymore.
I’m sorry I’m giving you all these details, but as soon as I read this article about your diagnosis, I became very emotional and was even crying.
Well…just think and stay positive, and may good health be restored to your whole body in Jesus name.

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Christopher Foster January 21, 2014 at 12:04 pm

Thank you for your blessing Liz. I’m touched by your kind but also very moving words and I offer my condolences on the loss of your mother. I wish you all the very best. Love and blessings to you.

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Kay January 18, 2014 at 3:11 pm

Hi Christopher,
So sorry to hear about your diagnosis. But your thoughts of joy and timeless peace give me so much happiness. I lost both my parents last year, Mum to cancer after being in hospital for nine weeks.
I hope you continue to improve and get to take many more walks on this earthly plane!
Best wishes.
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Christopher Foster January 21, 2014 at 12:08 pm

A pleasure to hear from you Kay. Thank you for your good wishes and I offer my condolences on the loss of your parents. Good to share this journey with you.

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maria middlestead January 18, 2014 at 3:11 pm

Christopher, I am so sorry to hear of your dark challenges, yet admire as always your graciousness, strength and perspective. Healing Hugs, Maria

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Christopher Foster January 21, 2014 at 12:12 pm

Your kind words and healing hugs are most welcome Maria. I send hugs back to you. You live in a beautiful country where I spent some very happy months in younger years. I wonder if the paper I worked on, the Marlborough Express is still going…

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Lucille Goossens January 18, 2014 at 3:13 pm

Thank you, Chris, for your beautiful spirit and words. It is so good to again receive your posts….I missed not receiving them. It is such a joy to read about what matters most to you regardless of any pain, discomfort, or surgery as you have experienced recently. It is true, as the physical body ages, we do encounter certain things that aren’t optimal health. But uncomfortable or painful as this may be at times, we know we are not our body or mind and heart; we know Something more and we consciously transcend this, but it doesn’t mean we ignore the problems that are present; we do what we need to do as needed in any moment. I speak of this because it is my experience at this time.
Glad to know you are on your feet once again. I love your beautiful story, Chris; told with so much love and warmth. My love to you, Chris.
Lucille

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Christopher Foster January 21, 2014 at 12:20 pm

Bless you Lucille. Thank you for your uplifting words born of your own wisdom and experience. I send love and blessings.

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Janet January 18, 2014 at 3:19 pm

Greetings Christopher,

I send peace and joy your way. Thank you, once again, for an insightful and uplifting message.

My brother had the same surgery about ten years ago now. He is doing well and continues with a good life too. Last summer he drove, along with his daughter, from Wisconsin to Oregon. They camped along the way while enjoying the beauty of nature.

Relish every day, along with the small and gifted insights you share with others. May you continue to heal and bless your walks outside as you get better.

Janet

Janet

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Christopher Foster January 22, 2014 at 11:02 am

Janet, what a sweet, uplifting comment. It was lovely to hear how well your brother is doing. Yes, the days are here to be relished, aren’t they.

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Linda January 18, 2014 at 3:19 pm

Dear Chris,
You have written about your illness with great skill and ability.
The problem is, as we all get older, we think we’re immune to illness. It happens to everyone else…
You inspire us all with your gentle words and I thank you for entrusting us with your story. I will muse on your words and hope your prognosis is good,
Warm wishes and thanks,
Linda
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Christopher Foster January 22, 2014 at 11:12 am

Thank you for your kind words Linda. Yes, there does seem to be a tendency to think “it will not come nigh my door.” The paradox is that the truth of ourselves is immune to illness, just not our bodies it seems…
Love and best wishes

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Timaree January 18, 2014 at 3:25 pm

Best wishes for a full recovery. My husband had a cancerous kidney removed several years ago and CAT scans have shown the cancer is gone and didn’t spread. It can happen this way and I hope that is how it goes for you! I figured when you took the leave of absence saying you had health issues it was the big CA. That scares most people more than anything else does! If you hadn’t felt any fear you would have been quite unusual. The joy is a glad thing! That is a blessing not everyone gets. I think its because you pay attention to the good things in life. Rest up!

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Christopher Foster January 22, 2014 at 11:15 am

Hey, Timaree, how are you? It’s good to hear from you. Thank you for sharing the story of your husband, it’s an inspiring story for sure. My love to you both.

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Susan Short January 18, 2014 at 3:27 pm

Dear Chris,
Thank you for sharing so honestly of your experiences and your feelings around them. Sometimes going through those dark valleys and climbing those challenging hills can lead us to the most beautiful and nourishing perspectives. I so resonate with your words and the undaunted spirit behind them. I will think of you walking every time I go for a walk now. May your healing continue apace. Happy trails!
Love,
Susan

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Christopher Foster January 22, 2014 at 11:17 am

Happy trails to you too Susan. I’m very happy to hear from you and send my love to you and Steve.

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Jody January 18, 2014 at 3:40 pm

I wish you a speedy recovery. Good luck.

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Christopher Foster January 26, 2014 at 1:50 pm

Thank you Jody. Good luck to you too.

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Cynthia wilcox January 18, 2014 at 3:58 pm

You have endeared yourself to me, as i have followed your beautiful blog posts. May you be well,
Willy

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Christopher Foster January 23, 2014 at 1:13 pm

Thank you Willy. God bless.

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Marisa January 18, 2014 at 4:33 pm

Christopher,
It was wonderful to see your post. As you heal please know all of the energy of the Universe, as well as the love and energy of those that care so deeply about you, are with you as you take each step. I believe we have a collective energy that we share through walking the Universe, embracing nature, and sharing love and peace. You are a true inspiration, and the epitome of all I strive to be.
with love,
Marisa

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Christopher Foster January 23, 2014 at 1:11 pm

You are a blessing to me and many others, Marisa. It’s good to be walking the Universe together.

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Harriet Cabelly January 18, 2014 at 5:25 pm

May you continue to live in a place of JOY. And when fear rears it’s head, as it does, may they both coexist together in your warm heart.
I send you soulful healing as you continue to get stronger.

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Christopher Foster January 23, 2014 at 1:09 pm

Thank you Harriett. Your words are a true blessing.

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Evan Griffith January 18, 2014 at 6:01 pm

Chris — I love you — I send love to you — I will be amassing a love wave from others for you — Your are LOVED! — Evan
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sheila January 18, 2014 at 6:06 pm

Good day Christopher
So happy to see your post today, you have been missed !!
I am sending you healing thoughts and prayers from BC. Be kind to yourself with plenty of rest, some of us are eagerly waiting to read many more of your lovely writings !!
cheers
Sheila

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Christopher Foster January 26, 2014 at 1:49 pm

It’s always a pleasure to hear from you Sheila. Thank you for your encouraging and helpful words and my love to both you and BC, such a beautiful land where I was privileged to live for many years.

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Carol Wills January 18, 2014 at 6:07 pm

Thank you so much for these beautiful insights. I fervently pray that you will recover completely and enjoy more years of happy life with your family. Please continue to share with us your feelings, and know that we fully support you.

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Christopher Foster January 22, 2014 at 11:19 am

Thank you and bless you Carol. Your words are balm to my heart. Very happy to share this journey with you.

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Elizabeth Nunn January 18, 2014 at 6:09 pm

Even though having known you for a short time, I have always been impressed with your irrepressible sense of knowing your true nature, the source of the ” sense of deep, timeless peace” of which you write. Your joy of living is what brought the fear under control and into a manageable emotion. Your love of being in Nature meets your own absolute Nature and healing occurs. Blessings, Magic Man.

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Christopher Foster January 22, 2014 at 11:22 am

I think you make a wonderful point about joy being an antidote to fear. Very thankful for my friendship with you Elizabeth. Blessings to you too.

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Becky January 18, 2014 at 8:01 pm

Your message is full of good news. You will make a good recovery and be well so you can continue to send messages to us for many years to come about that deep inner joy and peace that you talk about so well. Blessings and good health to you for always.

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Christopher Foster January 22, 2014 at 11:24 am

Thank you for your uplifting words Becky. I’m grateful to you for your comment and send blessings and love back to you.

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Mana January 18, 2014 at 8:27 pm

Christopher,
Thank you for sharing your story. It was beautifully written. I’m touched by your candid words and what you’re going through and happy to hear that it was detected early. Sending you and your family love and prayers. I look forward to reading about all the positive experiences you’re sure to have in 2014 and beyond.

xoxo,
Mana

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Christopher Foster January 22, 2014 at 11:26 am

Mana, what a delight to hear from you. We’ll look forward together to the good and positive things to come in 2014 and beyond.

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John January 18, 2014 at 8:29 pm

Christopher,

You write so well. Thank you for sharing your challenges. You’re an inspiration to your contemporaries and others.

You are healing,

Best regards,

John

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Christopher Foster January 22, 2014 at 11:27 am

Good to hear from you John. Thank you and God bless.

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Christopher Foster January 26, 2014 at 1:44 pm

Thank you John. It’s good to hear from you.

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Betsy/Zen Mama January 18, 2014 at 8:30 pm

Hello Christopher,
I am so sorry to hear of your diagnosis. But I loved reading what you had to say about the prognosis. My mother in law was just diagnosed with the same also caught early. I’m very happy to hear that you’ve found a deeper connection and blessings. I’ve often heard that people do when they go through cancer.
Sending you the best and you will be in my prayers.
Betsy
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Christopher Foster January 22, 2014 at 11:31 am

Hi Betsy, thanks for writing and keeping me in your prayers. Thanks also for sharing about your mother in law. Love to you across the miles and …good blogging.

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Rosalind January 18, 2014 at 10:06 pm

I cannot even begin to imagine the immediate shock and subsequent anxiety one feels when given a diagnosis like this!

I have a dear friend who went through the same process, she has been such a testament to me … much as see about you as I read in your article. It has taken a number of years to get her full strength back … but wow, to watch her heal over the years has created many life-lessons for me. Receiving your newsletters does the same for me … we are all aging (well, certainly the body – my mind remains forever young!) and we need others out there to be examples of courage and open honesty.

What is it that gets one through? Faith, belief in life, belief in God, gratitude, joy?

Whatever it is .. ‘thank you’ for sharing.

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Christopher Foster January 26, 2014 at 1:43 pm

Thank you for sharing about your friend, Rosalind. And thank you for your thought about aging. Our spirit does not grow old, for sure, and I have to believe that if we trust our own spirit, and listen to our spirit’s counsel in the quietness of our heart we will always know what our next step should be.

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Lucille January 19, 2014 at 8:09 am

Dear Chris,

I enjoyed reading and appreciate reading each one’s comment regarding your physical situation and the love from their hearts surrounding you always…particularly during your healing cycle, as this is also my thought and well wishes for your quick recovery. I just want to add here from my heart of love, a big Thank You for your blog “The Happy Seeker.” It is always such a delight to receive this via email.

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Lorraine Pollay January 19, 2014 at 8:56 am

Dear Chris,
Much love and blessings to you for handling your health challenge in such an outstanding manner. I too have been dealing with the challenge of AFib this past year and I found that as my physical situation caused me to become semi isolated from the “world” my spiritual life expanded as I gained new insights into the “real world”. My physical situation has not changed but I have gained a sense of Peace that Passes all Understanding and I am deeply thankful for the experience that brought me here.

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Christopher Foster February 1, 2014 at 11:06 am

Your words are beautiful and very inspiring, Lorraine. I’m so sorry that I got a bit confused trying to respond to so many comments a week or two back, and missed acknowledging your comment. I send love and blessings and thank you again for your inspiring words.

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Rick January 19, 2014 at 10:02 am

Christopher
First I feel something close to regret that you got that diagnosis. Regret is
possibly the wrong word.

A few years ago I was diagnosed with transverse myelitis. It sneaks up on a
person and more or less instantly caused paralysis from the waist down.
Since then I’ve recovered better than most. I can walk, unassisted, which
some never walk again, for which I am most grateful. Still can’t control my
bladder and still fairly significant pain.

Its interesting how after being so very physical, so strong and able to
work hard all my life, I was so terrified to find myself confined to a
wheel chair. It changed my definition of myself drastically. But through
the past several years I’ve begun to accept my body as it is. Still not
thrilled with my condition, but accepting to a degree. I find that I feel
very much like a victim in this. And I hate that feeling. I know at least
in my head that I choose every moment to be who and what I am, never a
victim, except of my own choices.

You seem to be ok with the thought of death. I still feel quite fearful.
If you wish to write back, please do.Thank you for sharing about this new
event in your life. I do not sense any idea of victim hood from your words.
Rick

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Christopher Foster January 25, 2014 at 5:19 pm

Rick, your words are inspiring and very touching. It says a lot for your inner strength and courage that you have done so well in the face of these very difficult experiences.

I think you put your finger on something very important when you speak about learning to accept what has been going on to a degree. I have also found in my own life that when things seem utterly bleak and utterly beyond our control, paradoxically, there is the possibility of becoming aware of a great truth — a great blessing — which perhaps we might otherwise have ignored.

In my experience, the key to that inner self-discovery is stillness. I have found that ultimately, all I have to do is to be still for a moment and wonders transpire. Suddenly, freedom and true fulfilment is no longer somewhere far off. It is present right where I am. I discovered this, by the way, while in a terrible depression.

Happiness really is our true nature. Even this demon we call death begins to lose its sting when we allow ourselves to taste the stillness of our own being. Thank you again for writing. I send a ton of love and blessings.

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Sally January 19, 2014 at 1:36 pm

Dearest Chris,
Your post is so timely for me. I don’t think about death that often. I’ve realized that at 64 I’m closer to the end than the beginning. Every once in awhile I will have a thought about death that is accompanied by a fear that makes me want to close the door to the thought. Your post gave me the insight to see that none of us are getting out alive…none of us.

I have type 1 diabetes for the last 40 years and I’m starting to show the symptoms of poor circulation. I’m a small person and every once in awhile my legs will swell and become mottled. Then I start thinking that my legs are going to have to be amputated. I always seem to arrive at the worst possible scenario first. If I continue to take care of my illness, the fact is I will probably not lose my legs. That scares me more than death (I think).

For me one of the important things to remember and practice in my everyday life is to love those around me, both family and friends. It seems logical to me that a string of days well lived takes care of the past and the future. I don’t live with regret anymore because I’ve lived a good life since I made a few spiritual insights, including there are certain things I have no control over and death is definitely one of them. The fear comes and goes. Sometimes I think about death rationally, and other times I feel like I can do nothing but feel fear. My only hope is that by the time it’s my turn I will experience death as the next step in life. How I will get there I have no idea.

It helps to hear you share the same fears (as I do think you’re a bit spiritually advanced than myself). C.S. Lewis once said (paraphrased) that man, spiritually speaking, is like an infant on the floor of the nursery pulling the wings off flies. King baby ruling the world from his high chair with his rattle as his sceptre. I can see myself even at my age sometimes surprised that life presents challenges (including dying) that make me want to screech from my high chair that things should be easier, including overcoming irrational fear.

I so hope your recovery moves along at a steady pace and that you have your stamina and energy back soon.
Best,
Sal

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Christopher Foster January 23, 2014 at 12:49 pm

Dear Sally,

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences. You are absolutely right when you express the hope that when death comes, as it comes for each of us, you will experience it as simply the next step in life, because that is exactly what it is. It’s the next step for our physical body, obviously, as it disintegrates. But more importantly, and more interestingly, it’s the next step for the spiritual being that you are and that I am and that we all are.

As a spiritual being, we are boundless and free right now even despite our present circumstances. Of course, just me saying that doesn’t make it true. But as many have been discovering — people who have had near-death experiences, for instance — we are much more than our physical body. We are spirit. Eternal spirit. And the greatest gift life has to offer us, in my experience, is the opportunity we all have to really look into this and begin to realize for ourselves the truth of ourselves. You may find a book called ‘The Diamond in Your Pocket’ by a woman named Gangaji helpful in this regard. Love and blessings to you Sal.

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Kitty Peterson January 19, 2014 at 6:53 pm

You are such an amazing individual with such an uncanny insight into life itself! I love reading your works – your thoughts and beliefs. I am So happy your prognosis looks good and I will be praying for good news and your complete recovery.

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Christopher Foster January 23, 2014 at 12:50 pm

Kitty, how great to hear from you. Very thankful for your kind words. All the best to you.

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michel vaillancourt January 19, 2014 at 7:51 pm

Dear Chris,
I am glad to hear that you have overcome this disease. It seem that it is an other challenge that life send you and that you came through with flying color. I am sure your creative spirit has something to do with this healing result. We sometime take for granted life but it is a gift that we need to hold and share with people around us.
In the spirit of blessing and love.
One with you
Michel

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Christopher Foster January 23, 2014 at 12:53 pm

Thank you Michel. It’s always a pleasure to hear from you. Yes. We are indeed One just as you say. Love to you.

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Paola January 19, 2014 at 9:50 pm

I send you the best energies from Ecuador, South America. I will pray for you to feel better every day. Please keep on sharing such inspiring pieces. Know that even though we may not always write back to you, we always look forward to your positive attitude and resilience. This is only a test. You are a healed man in Jesus name 🙂

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Christopher Foster January 23, 2014 at 12:55 pm

So special to hear from you Paola. I send you a ton of good wishes and please say Hi to Ecuador for me.

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Sandra Pawula January 20, 2014 at 1:53 am

My heart is with you in every way, Christopher. I send prayers for your speedy recovery and return to vitality.

I’m so grateful for this message that you share: how we can find joy deep within our fear. I am so encouraged and inspired by you!

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Christopher Foster January 23, 2014 at 12:56 pm

Thank you so much for your kind thoughts and prayers, Sandra. We’ve been friends a long time, haven’t we?

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gorinka simic January 20, 2014 at 2:33 am

I wish you all the best. I love your messages that you share with us. I am so inspired
by you. Kisses from Serbia.

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Christopher Foster January 23, 2014 at 12:58 pm

Thank you and bless you Gorinka. A pleasure to hear from you.

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Pamela January 20, 2014 at 7:23 am

Dear, beloved Christopher – I know how hard this struggle must be to get back up and at it – returning to full strength. living right out loud and enjoying it all. I am picturing you totally restored – whole and well and healthy with the most vivid colors and energy I can muster. I also send you much love, light and sweet healing energy. Blessed be. <3

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Christopher Foster January 23, 2014 at 12:59 pm

Thank you for your uplifting comment Pamela. I do feel blessed and I send blessings right back to you.

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Denise January 20, 2014 at 8:35 am

Hi Chris, thanks for sharing your journey with cancer with us, its amazing who it gets hold of !! you of all people! but its how one handles it that is important and as you say you have found blessings amidst the suffering and a deeper connection with the love at your core…..you continue to be an inspiration to me and I wish you a very speedy recovery……and am also glad you wont need further treatment! God Bless xxxx

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Christopher Foster January 25, 2014 at 4:35 pm

It’s good to hear from you Denise. Thank you for your words and I send you best wishes for a happy and, as they say, prosperous 2014.

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Jayne January 20, 2014 at 9:17 am

Wishing you full recovery and strength. Thank you for your inspiring words!

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Christopher Foster January 25, 2014 at 4:33 pm

Thanks Jayne. Take care.

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Dr Kenneth January 20, 2014 at 1:52 pm

Thanks for your blog on your surgery. My Love & enfoldment is with you !! I can associate with your situation as I had one of my own. 12/25/2010 Had loss of energy, unusual for me, been exercising 3-5 times a week for 16 years. Went to E.R. Diagnosed with congestive heart failure. Consult & exam by Cardio. 90% blockage in 3 coronaries, mitral valve regurgitation.They wanted to do surgery in 3 days. I opted out to their chagrin & did alternative therapy. Little change. Flew to California 5/2011 for 2nd opinion. Tests same but Docs. in Colo had missed clot in left ventricle & surgery recommended. Prognosis – I could die, be paralysed etc.so opted out again. Took meds for 3 months & able to walk for exercise.

Discontinued meds & continued alternative therapy. Very little change. Could not do much for 10 months. March 2012 got call from my B.E.S.T. Energy Mentor, he had some new “stuff” Flew to L.A. for seminar & he worked on me 3 times for a total of 10 minutes. Within 12 hours of my 1st treatment I was 100 % improved & got energy back. Best I felt in 15 months. Reexam in California… no change in tests; they wanted to do surgery. I said NO !! & since then have been doing outstanding with natural therapy & doing this NEW stuff on my my patients with terrific results. I am almost back to normal. Your blog resurrected these thoughts.. I am deeply thankful for my experience & health… Ken

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Christopher Foster January 25, 2014 at 4:32 pm

Thank you for sharing, Ken. My goodness, that is quite a journey you’ve been on. I am very thankful that you have come through it all so well, and I’m also thankful that you are sharing all the lessons you have learned with your patients. It’s good to be friends. Lots of love to you.

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Cliffe January 20, 2014 at 3:38 pm

Dear Chris,

Thank you for sharing this intimate part of your journey in such a clear and generous manner. Shall I wish you a speedy recovery? Shall I tell you I am sorry that you are having this experience? At some level I suppose that is accurate. And yet, I feel most compelled to tell you that I know what you know…our comings and goings are adventures that ride on wings of our eternalness. It is in this knowledge that we travel in Joy, wherever we are and to wherever we are bound for.

I know I am blessed by you. Thank you.

Cliffe

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Christopher Foster January 25, 2014 at 4:26 pm

The feeling is mutual Cliffe. I am blessed by you. Thank you for your lovely, poetic words.

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Gail Brenner January 20, 2014 at 5:23 pm

Dear Chris,

You are an inspiration to everyone when you handle a challenge like this with so much raw openness to all of it and still being available to grace. My heart and prayers are with you. I am honored and grateful to call you a friend.

Much love,
Gail

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Christopher Foster January 25, 2014 at 4:24 pm

Gail, I’m delighted to hear from you, and sorry it’s taking me awhile to respond to all my comments. Very thankful for the friendship we share.

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Melanie Loza January 21, 2014 at 11:58 am

So happy to hear you are ok! Thank you so much for taking the time to let us know and for sharing your experience that we may understand or at least not be as afraid when we too are faced with the unexpected. You are a true light and I thank you for shining so brightly. Love and prayers, Melanie

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Christopher Foster January 25, 2014 at 4:22 pm

Thank you Melanie. May the light that is in all of us shine brightly for you in all the days to come.

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vlad January 21, 2014 at 12:52 pm

Dear Christopher

At times like these it’s natural to have lots of thoughts and concerns going thorough the mind.

But as you already know, this is all but a part of the dream called life. We are the observers, witnessing the play evolve.

Christopher, stay focused on the underlying truth which is an eternal consciousness unaffected by the drama of this life.

My best wishes and many blessings go out to you and Joan.
Vlad

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Christopher Foster January 25, 2014 at 4:19 pm

Thanks Vlad. It’s good to re-connect. Best wishes to you too.

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Dea January 21, 2014 at 2:49 pm

I have been reading your blog and did not ever know your age. I am really impressed, that you have been giving me so much inspiration. The Chinese have it right, there is so much to learn from are elders. I send you blessings, but I know that with your spirit you will be fine, you have such a deep connection to the universe.

Thank you for all your wonderful blogs and wishing you health for 2014!

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Christopher Foster January 25, 2014 at 4:18 pm

Blessings to you too Dea. Thank you for your kind words about my blog.

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Elke January 22, 2014 at 7:31 am

Dearest Christopher,
May you walk your way to better health and enjoy the process! Especially as you enrich so many other lives with your telling of it.
My challenges pale in significance, thank you for adjusting my perspective, yet again!
I wish you lots of joy!
Elke

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Christopher Foster January 25, 2014 at 4:16 pm

Thank you Elke. I wish you lots of joy too. God bless.

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Llynde January 22, 2014 at 1:18 pm

These words say it all, Christopher.
Namaste
Llynde

Cherokee Journey Blessing
Heal Ourselves, Heal the World – Facebook

May Peace be in your heart all the days of your life.
May you soar high like the eagle.
With the clarity of the Great Hawk, May you see.
May you be given the wisdom of the owl and that of the Grandmothers and Grandfathers before you.
May your strength be that of the Buffalo that endorsers.
May You be Given the wisdom of the north in the here and now.
May Gratitude Grace your heart and mind.
For that which has been given. Be thankful.
It has taught you and sustained you.
Be giving, think well of others, wish no ill, work hard, do things to better your life and the life of others.

May you be reminded of the wisdom of the east.
To appreciate a new day coming.
To see opportunities & hope ahead.
May you be reminded Of the caring tenderness of the gentle deer and hummingbird when dealing with others and yourself.
May you be Wise of frailties and delicacy of the heart.
May Your Intuition be keen and acute, may your inter- compass let you know when it is fine to extended yourself and when it is best to retreat.

May you be reminded of the wisdom of the west, the place of the great bear. That there is a time for hibernation, not to stay but replenish,
A place in time to be made for rest and reflection.
To gain wisdom from what has pasted. To appreciate where you have been and how far you have come.

May you be reminded of the wisdom of the south.
To appreciate the Child within you, to take time to laugh, play, and explore. To Imagine and create.
And Welcome the wonders of unknown.
Be open to new perspectives. To learning and seeking knowledge. To new discoveries and experiences.
May you view the world with the wide eyed wonder of a child.
May the Joyful nature of the butterfly be yours.

May You be reminded of the wisdom of now.
The center point of all.
Keeping you aware of the importance of the present.
May you always find a place serenity within.
May your life be blessed with so much blissfulness that your heart sings out with joy, like that of the song birds that great the day.

May you be reminded of the wisdom of below and above
Of the Importance of staying grounded to the Earth,
while on your endeavors & adventures.
That the mother is the place of comfort & nurturing.
She is the giver of all life, to take from the Earth is to take from ourselves.
We must take care of her. To live and flourish.
May you be reminded that when you need comfort, nurturing and wisdom to seek deep within yourself for there we are connected to all through the web of life, through Creator.
May you become intimate with The Divine nature, becoming of one mind and heart with Creator. For that is your connection to Divine Guidance and what allows Diviness: to happen in your life.
May your Heart always be one of Grace.

May abundant Blessings be yours always.

~ Rhonda Redbird Cherokee/ Choctaw

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Christopher Foster January 26, 2014 at 1:32 pm

Gorgeous words Llynde. Thank you so much for sharing this inspiring blessing.

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Ellie January 22, 2014 at 1:20 pm

I know I’m one of many, many readers sending healing thoughts your way, and keeping you and JoAnn top of mind. We’ve missed you.

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Christopher Foster January 26, 2014 at 1:30 pm

Thank you Ellie. With you in this journey we are all on.

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Ronnie Lim January 22, 2014 at 2:28 pm

Dear Chris,

I love your description of your experience of “deep, timeless peace”.

Inspired by my work with “A Course in Miracles”, I have come up with a personal mantra which I think resonates with the joy you have come to know. I may say the following words several times during the day, especially if a feeling of fear or anxiety comes up:
“I am surrounded by everlasting love. I am surrounded by eternal, perfect peace and joy. I am surrounded by perfect safety.”

My love to you, Chris,
Ronnie

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Christopher Foster January 26, 2014 at 1:29 pm

I love your mantra Ronnie. Many thanks for sharing it. May your words bless all our hearts.

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Annette Franke-Terbille January 23, 2014 at 5:15 am

Dear Chris, it is so good to know that you are well even if you feel weak sometimes. Maybe it is difficult to understand and feel that deep, timeless peace until something critical like a dangerous illness or a sudden death of a close person happens. But it is true and by accepting the situation as it is we allow doors to open, doors to new feelings, to exciting possibilities and to joy. I wish you inner peace and joy every day of your life.
Love to you – Annette

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Christopher Foster January 26, 2014 at 1:27 pm

Hi Annette. Great to hear from you. How are you and what are you up to these days? I send a load of love and blessing to you from Colorado.

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Christine Jonas January 23, 2014 at 9:02 am

Healing thoughts are with you from us. We hope for the best for you and enjoy reading your blogs and thoughts. Much love, Christine and Allan

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Allan January 23, 2014 at 7:35 pm

I just received my copy of your wonderful new book the other day and had just begun
reading it with great delight when my wife told me of the news of your latest challenge.
I think it takes a tremendous lot of courage, guts, determination , trust, patience—— in essence all of the character traits that could best be described as being embodied in the truth of Love to give birth to such a book. Again, you have put it out there in selfless love as a gift
to all. Over and over you have demonstrated that you are always up to the challenge and victorious in the end in spite of the tribulation our human capacities may
keenly feel and to which you are so open and honest in sharing. As always you will emerge on the bright side also of this situation and continue to be I’m sure an inspiration
to so many no matter what form it takes. Closely with You!
Cheers Allan
all of the stuff that is contained in what might be described as the truth of love

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Christopher Foster January 26, 2014 at 1:26 pm

Allan, I’m overwhelmed with your kind words both about myself but in particular about my book. The idea that despite its challenges, aging can be a rich opportunity to grow and expand our borders is dear to my heart, for sure.

If you have time and feel so inclined would you please consider submitting a review of “The Secret Promise of Aging” to my book page at Amazon.com (the main U.S. site)? This would be a huge boost for me. It’s a real joy to share this journey of life with you.

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