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Are you feeling disillusioned with life?


Are you feeling a bit disillusioned with life? Is there a feeling somewhere deep inside you that life is too difficult and there is no real meaning or purpose to it?

I have discovered, like many people, that it can be a wonderful thing to come face-to-face with disillusionment or despair.

Our challenges can be a catalyst inviting us to see beyond our worries and realize – in a God-given moment – the primeval stillness that has been calling to us since our birth and in which is the answer to all our fears or aspirations.

In the stillness that lives in the core of our being is the wisdom we need to solve our problems and find true meaning and happiness in our lives.

Courage is there also. Courage does not come out of thin air. Courage – like faith, like perseverance, like trust – is the child of stillness.

We have become expert, as a culture, in avoiding stillness. We find new ways to ignore it every day. It's as if we think stillness is our enemy.

But it is not our enemy. As I experience the challenges and blessings of aging, I see more clearly every day that stillness is our friend, and always has been.

Stillness is the Angel of God waiting to help us heal our life and heal the seemingly impossible problems and complexities of the world in which we live.

So regardless of what is happening or not happening in your life, and regardless of the challenges you face – perhaps because of them – take some time to listen to the stillness that is calling to you continually from the depths of your heart.

Just as stillness rescued me from a fearsome depression some years ago, opening a door to a new life, so stillness will assist you in remarkable, unpredictable ways in finding the meaning, joy and inner peace that is your true destiny.

Would love to share any thoughts you may have on the above. My love is with you.

Picture credit:   Some rights reserved by The Wandering Angel



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Jessica August 30, 2013 at 1:51 pm

Thank you, that was a beautiful message to read at this remarkably hard time in my life. I consider myself as aging already, even though I’m 36. I have had 7 children so feel more on par with people in their 50’s.

Today I am battling obesity, depression, addiction, and sorrow. I am worried about the future and if I can achieve my dreams and goals to support my family. When there is no food to turn to, no drugs, and no feel-good people around, it IS the stillness that you spoke of that pulls me through. It is okay to weep, to allow stillness to embrace and heal your soul.

I pray from my inner depths for the strength to carry on successfully for the purpose of helping others. I don’t really live for myself anymore. I’ve had enough of me. Your words are beautiful and inspiring and so very nice to read, thank you again.


Christopher Foster August 30, 2013 at 5:16 pm

Thank you so much for your sharing Jessica. In one way or another I think you speak for many. I admire your courage and I admire your trust and your resolute spirit. Surely as you keep your attention focussed on what is beautiful and true in yourself and in life the guidance and strength you need to heal and grow will always be with you. Love and blessings to you Jessica.


trevor June 4, 2016 at 11:40 pm

I’m just writing to say That I can understand how you were feeling when you wrote your original post in august 2013.
one thing I have learned is that humans do things to comfort themselves.
so let’s say you felt depressed,
you may have resorted to comfort eating even though it wasn’t the solution to whatever was bothering you at the time.
and maybe the comfort eating became a habit and over a period of time that lead to you becoming overweight.
that then increased any feelings of low self esteem you may have been feeling?
many of us have been through that Jess,
the key thing is for us to learn from our mistakes and try to find a solution that will give us peace of mind.
its not easy of course but I think it is worth the effort.
and as for addiction, I can relate to that as well.
I became an habitual user of cannabis due to a serious long term anxiety disorder.
at the time I Didn’t know what was wrong with me and I had no idea that GP’s offer medication to people with anxiety disorders.
and so I went through a pattern of practicing a habit which With hindsight I know would not help me long term.
but I did cause I needed help and it was the only option known to me at the time.
I’m now free from cannabis tobacco and alcohol.
but the anxiety disorder remains.
this has made me prone to depression simply cause I want to be free from this disorder but nothing seems to work.
and so like you I feel strong feelings of sorrow and I even think about suicide as a solution but I hope I won’t do it
even though as time goes by I feel like I’m losing the will to live.
that is made worse when I become more and more aware of how indifferent people can be towards one another in all kinds of ways.
for example I have have been cruelly mislead by a housing officer and it has left me feeling very hurt and depressed.
my friend also lost his dear mother who died as a result of the ambulance turning up late and by the time it arrived she was in effect brain dead and was kept on a machine for several weeks before the decision to switch off was taken and now my friend is devastated and misses his mum every day.
he feels that the health care system let his mum down in her time of need.
but to be fair to the ambulance service,
they are human and can’t always get to an address at the right time.
and I want to believe that they regret the delay which cost my friend’s mother her life.
I think my friend and his deceased mother are just two people of many who due to human error etc are left feeling devastated.
being in a situation like this can be very disheartening and can crush any faith a person has in god.
but I believe that God is faithful Jess.
and the story of Job bears witness to that.
he suffered great loss and pain but god never abandoned him and at the end of the trial the bible says that god compensated Job immensely so that all the pain loss and distress Job experienced was forgotten by the blessings given to him by god.
if that’s the way God Treated Job way back in the past then we can be sure he will do the same for you Jess and everyone else.
all we need is faith that he will keep his promises.
we need patience too but if we endure and keep hoping we may well live to see the day when god puts all things right on earth.
you can be sure Jess That just as I have replied to your message of distress from August 2013
god will respond in a far more beneficial way to your prayers.
so please keep praying and hoping and I hope you’ll be OK.
you take care now.
Bye Jess.
hugs from Trevor


Sally Sinden August 30, 2013 at 2:21 pm

Chris, As usual, I find comfort in your posts. I love stillness. It’s the only time I can hear myself think. My daughter-in-law has been away with my new grandson, so I am appreciating some alone time. I can spend hours on end alone, working on different art projects, and I’m perfectly at peace with the silence of my own company. I do however, know when I need to socialize, and I have a couple of girlfriends that I hang with when I need to get out. Working on projects in silence brings me peace. It’s as close to meditating as I can get. I’m also looking forward to my grandbaby coming home on Monday!


Christopher Foster August 30, 2013 at 5:22 pm

It’s great to hear from you Sally. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experience. It seems to me you are creating a nice balance in your life, it’s good to be at peace when we are alone and it’s good to enjoy the companionship of others and of nature. Well, that is something to look forward to, your grandchild coming home soon, is it a boy or a girl?


ashton fourie August 30, 2013 at 7:06 pm

hi cristopher ,, this one is realy good , johanna and i do the same in the early morning.. we sit outside in the garden and think and talk and pray,,sometimes aloud and sometimes just being still.. when there is a problem we take our small cups and drinks andhave holy communion with JESUS and ask for help and when the problem is solved,which happens always very quickly, we do the same to say thankyou… others days we just sit and be quiet.. it is really wonderfull to grow old and enjoy it.. GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY ,,, ashton fourie


Christopher Foster August 31, 2013 at 4:45 pm

Ashton, what a lovely, kind, inspiring message you have to share here. Thank you so much. I had connected with Johanna previously, but now it’s good to connect with you too. I love the image of the two of you sitting in your garden communing together, as you say, in stillness…yes, it is very good to grow old and enjoy it. Love and blessings to you both.



ashton fourie August 30, 2013 at 7:09 pm

i have just noticed that the computer says it is 30 august 7.06pm while it in fact 31 august 9.06 am,,


Sally Sinden August 30, 2013 at 7:48 pm

Chris, He’s a brand new baby boy, born on July 10th. His name is Izhak Wesley Sinden. I have three grandchildren. Two boys, Noah (age 7), and Cole (age 5) that are from my oldest boy (Troy), and Izhak from my youngest son (Zac) who I live with. Noah brings richness and the fun opportunity to learn about another culture, as my son Troy and his wife adopted him from Addis Ababa, Ethiopia when he was 5 months old. They had been trying to have a baby with no luck, so they decided to adopt. Soon after they brought Noah home, they found out they were pregnant with Cole. They are the most loving brothers ever. It proved to me something I’ve always suspected, racism is a learned behavior. Kids who are brought up in homes where it’s not taught know nothing of it.


Christopher Foster August 31, 2013 at 4:49 pm

Many thanks for the update Sally. It’s good to hear more about your three grandchildren. What an inspiring story. It’s good to share life’s journey with you.


Helen Raymond August 31, 2013 at 4:41 am

Christopher, your posts are so beautifully written almost as if the gentleness of your words are reaching out and connecting me to the deep stillness within. These words in particular resonated with me:
“In the stillness that lives in the core of our being is the wisdom we need to solve our problems and find true meaning and happiness in our lives.”
A year ago, I wouldn’t have been able to understand or believe this, but now there is a deep knowing within me that these words are true. Bless you for reaching out to others and sharing your wisdom. It gives great comfort, thank you.


Christopher Foster August 31, 2013 at 5:12 pm

Thank you for your lovely comment Helen. Surely something remarkable is going on in our world beyond the outer conflict and violence. We have the opportunity, as you indicate, to allow our ‘inner knowing’ of what is true to nurture and grow in the midst of strife, whether our own strife or the larger turmoil manifesting around us. It’s good to share the journey with you Helen.


Wanda Smith August 31, 2013 at 6:21 am

Thank you for sharing this lovely piece and reminding me again where God lives.


Christopher Foster August 31, 2013 at 5:14 pm

Thanks Wanda. Best wishes and God bless.


Nadeja August 31, 2013 at 6:48 am

Dear Chris,
I whole heartedly agree with you and know the wonderful experience of stillness. I have taken up the practice of daily meditation time and have done so for quite a few months now. The magical difference this has brought into my life is now known. I would hear people who meditated say that it would make a difference, now I know what they were talking about! Truly, practicing stillness has had a profound effect in my daily life. This stillness is readily available always. I ‘tune’ in many times during my day and am deeply grateful for these moments of rest and rejuvenation.
Thank you for sharing your heart with us.
Much love,


Christopher Foster August 31, 2013 at 5:17 pm

Lovely words Nadeja. Nothing beats actually experiencing something for ourselves, does it. Then we don’t need someone else to tell us something is true or not true, we know it for ourselves. Love to you.


Marisa August 31, 2013 at 9:00 pm

Stillness………….the early morning, a cup of tea, a bench in the backyard, the birds are rising, the sun peeks out, and the stillness surrounds me with the wonder of the silent echoes of my life. No direction, no clock, nothing to hear except nature, and the whispers of my soul/spirit to guide me through the vast calm of being still.
Healing of body and soul can begin with each moment of solitude we gift ourselves. It can be any day, any time, anywhere…..just take that moment and allow the essence of your being to guide you.
It can be a task at times to re-enter a place of serenity and quiet. Especially when we need it the most…..and have to struggle to find it. Stillness will never evade us, abandon us, misdirect us, or put us on a rocky path. A walk at twilight can become a playground of solitude as we allow nature to surround us, and peace to enter where conflict once invaded.

Whatever each of us call this time frame, it is the answer to contentment, understanding, compassion, empathy, laughter, and tears.
It is a time to understand ourselves better, accept others with open arms, and follow the path we call our destiny.


Christopher Foster September 1, 2013 at 5:05 pm

What beautiful words. Thank you Marisa. Your words are a poem that stirs me deeply. I think the first time I became consciously aware of the power of stillness was when I went to a concert in London’s Royal Festival Hall. I was about 16 or 17. I’m not quite sure why I went to the concert, but I did. Toward the end of the program I felt my consciousness shifting and I became aware of a sense of peace I had never experienced before.

It was a deep, transcendent peace that bathed me from head to toe. As the music came to a close I looked around in bewilderment, not quite sure what had happened. As people began chatting and laughing and getting ready to leave the hall I joined them, vividly aware that something beautiful had happened even though I didn’t know what it was. That was a long time ago. How true it is, as you say, that stillness will never abandon us or let us down. Thank you again for your comment.


Kaylin Lydia September 12, 2013 at 10:46 am

Unbeknownst to me, I spent years running from stillness. Eventually, it caught up to me and I was forced to face the feelings I was running from so I could finally lead a peaceful and happy life. It was the scariest yet best thing that has happened to me. I now can not imagine leading my life without the stillness. Great post, thank you.


Christopher Foster September 17, 2013 at 2:40 pm

Kaylin, I’m so sorry that I somehow missed responding to your comment. I want to thank you for yur words and say you and me both. I had exactly the same experience in my own life. But I’ve thought so often, “Better late than never.” Every good wish.


Kaylin Lydia September 19, 2013 at 7:32 am

No problem, thank you again for your consideration! : )

Roger September 30, 2013 at 2:54 am

I would like to suggest one thing that we don’t need to disappoint in life because these things are for a while and we have to just wait for that time. No need to find new ways when you disappointed with something if you think good.


Christopher Foster October 6, 2013 at 9:43 am

Thanks for sharing your thoughts Roger. Best wishes.


Liana January 24, 2014 at 4:20 am

Hello, I totally agree with you that some times our challenges can be act as the catalyst that bring us on the right path to move forward. Great insights. I really enjoyed the whole post. Thank you.


Christopher Foster January 26, 2014 at 1:18 pm

Thank you Liana. All the very best to you.


C A April 26, 2015 at 9:03 am

More B.S. Been waiting for this stillness to work its wonders but do far, nothing. This is useless BS!!!


Guest July 19, 2015 at 9:32 pm

I have tried meditation and stillness for over 20 years. I had seen more trauma by the time I was 13 than most 60 year olds. I sought this type of mindfulness as a remedy along with counseling in my early to mid-20’s. It was always a struggle but I mastered quieting the mind and just listening but it yielded no results. All I felt was apathy. After a few years of being at it, I began to struggle with falling asleep, which is what it always results in now. I tried Shamanic trance with the hope a beat or something would keep me focused but no luck. Even in the stillness, I feel disillusionment. The feeling that there is truly nothing here for me. What advice can you offer?


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