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What is your deepest longing?

What is your deepest longing?

One of the reasons I'm so grateful for the privilege of aging is that it has given -- and continues to give -- more space and time to let my own deepest longing be fulfilled, and enjoyed. And made new.

I'm a slow learner, I guess.

"Better late than never," they say, and that's sure been true in my own life. In some ways it feels as if it's only in the last two or three years that my own longing has really come true -- the longing I blurted out to my parents at lunch one day when I was 15 years old.

"I want to find the truth of my existence," I cried during an argument with my dad. Oh my, what a scene there was that day. How angry and upset my father became, angry enough to slap me hard across the face with his hand.

He was a fine, fine man, but we never became close, and perhaps the encounter we had at lunch that day was an example of our separation.

What I really longed for was peace

In recent years, I have come to see that what I was seeking all my life -- something that is difficult to describe, but which can be experienced -- is a deeper connection with my own unconquerable spirit.

A deeper awareness of the stillness and peace of my own being as the winds of change roar.

It was more important to me than money, fame, a successful career -- even my love for my parents and family.

The pain, trauma and tribulations I have known in life -- and there have been plenty -- are insignificant compared to this stillness that I love. It is my own stillness. Feelings of anxiety and distress still arise -- but always this stillness is present.

I have come to see, and chuckle at one of life's supreme paradoxes -- the peace I was seeking so long and earnestly across all the continents of this world was actually seeking me.

It's who I truly am. It's who you truly are.

Seek and you shall find

The peace of our own timeless Self is with you and me constantly.

All that is necessary, I discovered at long last, is to be still for a few moments, and surrender, as it were to the timeless presence that is with us every moment of our existence, and which is who we truly are.

"Seek, and you shall find," the Bible says, and I experience that those five simple little words are true.

All you have to do is persevere in the direction your own inner wisdom dictates and your deepest longing will indeed come true.

What is your deepest longing? Whatever it is, know that if you seek and persevere you will find it.

Love and blessings to you, and I'd love to hear any thoughts you may have on this post.

I want to give a special thankyou to my friend Mary Jaksch, co-founder of the A-List Blogger Club It's a great community and a great resource for bloggers, and Mary has been and is a tremendous help in preparing my forthcoming course on "The true promise and potential of aging." There is so much involved in a venture like this. I had no idea. Incidentally Mary has even written two great articles especially for this course. I look forward to offering it very soon.

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gloria r April 5, 2011 at 8:25 am

” insignificant compared to this stillness that I love. It is my own stillness. Feelings of anxiety and distress still arise – but always this stillness is present.

I have come to see, and chuckle at one of life’s supreme paradoxes — the peace I was seeking so long and earnestly across all the continents of this world was actually seeking me.”

Yes Chris, it is always there, waiting, our renewal…Spring into life’s stream, love each day and peace is your reward!

Thanks Love you, gloria


Christopher Foster April 6, 2011 at 2:45 pm

Gloria, a real pleasure to hear from you again. Thank you for your comment and love to you too.


Gail Brenner (AFlourishingLife) April 5, 2011 at 10:07 am

I’m so happy for you, Chris, that you have found the peace you were searching for. So beautifully described here, and an inspiration to all of us.
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Christopher Foster April 6, 2011 at 2:44 pm

Thanks so much for your kind words Gail. I’m very thankful for your words and your friendship.


Sandra / Always Well Within April 6, 2011 at 4:42 pm


I’m so glad you have been able to find the inner peace that you have been seeking for so long. I felt so sad to hear how your father slapped you hard for having this grand wish. My greatest longing is also to realize and abide in the innermost nature of my mind.
Sandra / Always Well Within recently posted..Amazing Encounters with the Essence of Mind


Christopher Foster April 6, 2011 at 6:22 pm

Thankyou Sandra. I admire both you and your blog, and your words mean a lot to me. I also do take note how we share exactly the same longing… I think it is a longing that is timeless. It never leaves us. The longing to be one with our source…which we realize one day is ourSelf.

So happy to share the journey with you. Blessings.


Sheila April 6, 2011 at 6:14 pm

I am compelled to write to you this morning. Your website is delightful, I came upon it last year and have been reading it ever since.

Short and sweet, had to leave a 30 year marriage Dec 2009 and your words have been a tremendous help to me. I live in Prince Rupert BC, English family background so I guess there was a common ground right from the start.

I do believe some people are put on this earth for a reason. You are one of these people that one comes across in their lives that actually impacts them. So I thank you for all your wonderful ideas, positive, peaceful, calming. We need so much of that in this world we live in. I am blessed that I live in one of those kinds of communities.. you show the world that it also exists within ourselves.. cheers for now


Christopher Foster April 6, 2011 at 6:31 pm


I hardly know where to begin to thank you — your words are a true balm to me and also and even more importantly they inspire me and encourage me. I never got to Prince Rupert, but of course I know where it is. The BC coast is a beautiful place.

So happy to have connected with you in this way. However your life unfolds I do wish you all the very best. Love and blessings.


The Vizier April 7, 2011 at 8:48 pm

Hi Christopher,

You are an inspiration for all with your continuous quest for wisdom. Your example is a fine reminder that learning is a never ending process. Finding the truth of our existence is not easy. It takes courage to walk this path in spite of the many obstacles we face. But as we both know, the joy it brings is worth the sacrifices we make.

What is my deepest longing? To create that purpose which gives my life meaning. I believe through the writing at my blog at Han of Harmony, I am going along the path that is most in tune with my nature. But in the end, it is the journey, not the destination that matters.

Thank you for sharing this lovely post! 🙂

Irving the Vizier
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Christopher Foster April 9, 2011 at 12:19 pm

I’m really thrilled to share your deepest longing Irving. Thankyou for sharing in this way and thankyou for your courage in being true to your own true nature.

I think your writing and wisdom at your blog, Han of Harmony, is outstanding and such a fine step toward creating that true purpose of which you speak and sharing it in such a fine way with your world.


Jean April 8, 2011 at 10:18 am

I discovered your writings through another blog and requested to be on your email list. However, it said I was already on your list. I do not recall receiving any emails from you. Hmmm.

Anyway I feel life seems like a game in that we are all given clues to find ourselves. Some of us keep looking far and wide until some of us eventually find ourselves in ourselves. Now that I am “older” I also find life delightful and I relish a lot more.

It is so much more exciting each day, but I also do understand how it feels to be bogged down with worries and woes. What a relief to learn how to find the answers to the clues. I hope I get more writings from you ……..
Cheers, Jean


Christopher Foster April 9, 2011 at 12:13 pm

How lovely to hear from you Jean. Thankyou for your comment and thankyou for subscribing.

Your upbeat spirit reminds me of my Dad who lived to 95 and liked to say “every day is a bonus.” My Mom died several years before he did. Dad liked to say one thing he did before he went to sleep was think of something pleasant (often a holiday with Mom).

Some things go on in this internet world I don’t quite understand — and why you haven’t had any emails from me is one of them but … I’m so happy to connect with you. Blessings.


Tess The Bold Life April 9, 2011 at 6:09 am

Hi Christopher,
I’ve studied the book “A Course In Miracles” for 20 years. It’s a spiritual guide to inner peace. My deepest longing is to be more peaceful and loving everyday. I can live without almost everything except this.
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Christopher Foster April 9, 2011 at 12:01 pm

Thank you Tess. That’s the kind of commitment that can really bring deep change. You have a unique spirit and a unique message and it’s a pleasure to share this particular longing with you.


Diana April 11, 2011 at 1:40 pm

Christopher, whenever I come over to visit you here I feel a sense of calm and that I am in the presence of someone who understands things . Thank you for that.

For years I sought for inner peace. I am not searching for that anymore, because I found that in doing that, I was increasingly dissatisfied with the present.

I suppose now I am trying to no longer resist what is. I guess my deepest longing is to learn to accept. Which seems to be a huge challenge for me. I think I am doing it and then I sense the dissatisfaction again. But I think I am on the right path.

Thank you for your lovely blog, and for your wonderful, positive aura that somehow manages to make its way through cyberspace.
Diana recently posted..zen in the art of adventure


Christopher Foster April 13, 2011 at 11:02 am

You make a terrific point Diana. Even though I named my blog ‘the happy seeker’ I realize that it’s a paradox in a way. We obviously do need to start somewhere in our quest for happiness or truth. But what we discover if we stay with the process — just as you say — is that seeking at a certain point can become a distraction. We don’t have to look for peace when we realize that peace is already present with us as the central core of our being.

I just love being in touch with you across this ocean you call ‘cyberspace.’ Funny thing is, when I visit your site and breath in those rich Italian images and scents and breads (the coffee must be specially great!) it all seems very close. As do you. Blessings.


Catmax March 7, 2012 at 9:32 am

Hi Chris,
Cyberspace is a great way to connect with other people. I stumbled across your blog and enjoyed the quick short read.

Your point about stillness is what caught my attention. It has been my mantra for a long time. I use it as an affirmation daily. I find that it is in the soft, small whisper, (stillness) that not only do I find peace, but my God who wants to share all the secrets he created life with. My deep longing is that I hope to enjoy the journey and fill it with love on my way to a very important destination.


Christopher Foster March 7, 2012 at 6:16 pm

Great to hear from you Catmax and isn’t it true, the internet is an amazing opportunity to connect and find kindred spirits. I do so agree with your sentiments. Blessings and love on your journey.


Sunaina May 8, 2013 at 4:19 am

Hey Chris …. I am a 23 years old girl and my deepest longing is to find true love in life which I still haven’t found ! My searching for it has infact landed me up among wrong men ! I feel so disillusioned with life ….


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